Fear and resistance

[2sarah1]

Hi
So I'm 19 years old and i knew sedona 4 years ago, but i couldn't welcome any feeling, instead, I've been supressing all my feelings especially fear while trying to do it, maybe because I didn't really understand it, and I've been doing that for the past 4 years, as a result, I started to feel pain in my chest and my body, so fear of sickness and fear of death started taking over all my thinking, and I become depressed, and everytime I try to release, it becomes even worse, because of the resistance, it's so strong, and I feel so bad that I hurt my body by supressing feelings that it becomes diseases and not be able to release, I'm even afraid to go to doctor to check out my body and tell my family about what i feel, and sometimes i wish that i didn't know sedona, maybe my life should be better, but now I'm feeling afraid, alone and helpless,
I know that the issue with me not sedona.
I'm posting this as a last hope...
Sorry for my bad english

[DelilahCertifiedSMCoach]

Hi 2sarah1!

Sometimes it feels worse for a little while when we release because the energy that corresponds to the feeling is coming up and releasing. We do recommend that if you have some medical questions that you do consult a medical person.

With regards to resistance, see if you can allow the resistance to be here, even just a little, because that will support a release of the resistance.

Please keep us posted on how things unfold for you,
Delilah

[2sarah1]

Hi 2sarah1!

Sometimes it feels worse for a little while when we release because the energy that corresponds to the feeling is coming up and releasing. We do recommend that if you have some medical questions that you do consult a medical person.

With regards to resistance, see if you can allow the resistance to be here, even just a little, because that will support a release of the resistance.

Please keep us posted on how things unfold for you,
Delilah

Thank you for replying...
I started releasing resistance and I realized that so much feelings of shame are coming up and i let it go... But when it comes to fear there is a deep resistance and tension that I can't reach prevent me from welcoming.

[DelilahCertifiedSMCoach]

Hi 2sarah1

Sorry to just be getting back to you on this. I somehow managed to miss your reply.

Could allow the resistance to the fear to be here? Could you bring awareness to the resistance and take your time letting it come up? That may help to neutralize the fear enough to let that come up too. And you might also try to let just the tiniest drip of fear come up. You don't need to let it all come up at once. See what happens when you let a tiny drop of fear come up and the check and see if that's tolerable. If it is, the do the same again, and then again. Letting just a tiny drop come up can make a great deal of difference in how we feel. And it can show us that we can do this at an intensity and level of safety that is manageable and tolerable.

Warmly,
Delilah