Hi all,
I invested in The Sedona Method, with the express purpose or mission in mind, of being ok with separation. In this case, the person is a life long friend, and former lover as well whom I am still very in love with, despite my choices or decisions.
I find myself going about my day, not aiming to do anything with how I feel about the situation (She & I are not on speaking terms at the moment)
I get home, and have much to do with a deadline looming, yet I find myself de-motivated with a sensation of hopelessness and despair regarding this which I can't seem to shake regardless of releasing on the matter in various styles. It's getting in the way of my enjoyment of life at home, as work focus takes my mind off things.
When I try to welcome the emotions, there is a sensation of numbness, as though the emotions know what I'm about to do with them - Let them Go! So it's like they won't come up or something.
When I say I will just "welcome" this or that emotion related to this, I hardly ever experience any joyful emotions (from happy memories), but the pain comes easily (from hurtful or loving memories), along with many tears - never ending. I ask "could I?" along with "any actions" or "identification with" and would I let it go? and when? I've been at this for weeks now, and at first there was great progress, though there is something remaining. (fear of future jelousy looms as well)
Any help here is much much appreciated.
Many Thanks...
I invested in The Sedona Method, with the express purpose or mission in mind, of being ok with separation. In this case, the person is a life long friend, and former lover as well whom I am still very in love with, despite my choices or decisions.
I find myself going about my day, not aiming to do anything with how I feel about the situation (She & I are not on speaking terms at the moment)
I get home, and have much to do with a deadline looming, yet I find myself de-motivated with a sensation of hopelessness and despair regarding this which I can't seem to shake regardless of releasing on the matter in various styles. It's getting in the way of my enjoyment of life at home, as work focus takes my mind off things.
When I try to welcome the emotions, there is a sensation of numbness, as though the emotions know what I'm about to do with them - Let them Go! So it's like they won't come up or something.
When I say I will just "welcome" this or that emotion related to this, I hardly ever experience any joyful emotions (from happy memories), but the pain comes easily (from hurtful or loving memories), along with many tears - never ending. I ask "could I?" along with "any actions" or "identification with" and would I let it go? and when? I've been at this for weeks now, and at first there was great progress, though there is something remaining. (fear of future jelousy looms as well)
Any help here is much much appreciated.
Many Thanks...
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